In two more gigantic leaps steps, I will have completed the work for my MAPM. Today I take the first of those two steps - dfending my portfolio - and on Friday, it will be over when I turn in my last paper. If Ron Weasley caught a glimpse of my emotional state, I'm sure he'd say (again), "One person can't feel all that at once, they'd explode." In times like these, it's good to find the silver lining: mine is that I do, in fact, have a greater emotional range than a teaspoon.*
I am so so so so nervous about my defense today. I edited three papers from past coursework and wrote two short papers as per the instructions. But one of the papers SUCKS. Everything is relative, right? Well, even if the paper wasn't too bad on its own, relatively speaking it is nowhere close to par. I wrote it initially during my first semester - and that's what it reads like. I tried to fix it up, but... ugh. It does not reflect the growth I've experienced between the fall of '08 and now. But, it's done. It has been turned in. And I have to face the music at 5 p.m.
I don't think they can fail me. I think the worse that can happen is that I'll have to revise the portfolio. But I just want it to be over with! I tried telling Matthew that I could skip the defense and the last paper; that they couldn't take away my knowledge........ but he's making me do everything anyway! What apain great supporter!
Naw, I mean I know it will be fine, but I would like to just skip ahead to 5:30 and have it over with. So, if you think about it today, please pray and/or send good thoughts my way. I know it's not a case of human suffering, but... I'd really like to not throw up on the panel.
:)
*This is paraphrased from Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix by JK Rowling - page 21, according to the internets (I don't have the book on my person).
I am so so so so nervous about my defense today. I edited three papers from past coursework and wrote two short papers as per the instructions. But one of the papers SUCKS. Everything is relative, right? Well, even if the paper wasn't too bad on its own, relatively speaking it is nowhere close to par. I wrote it initially during my first semester - and that's what it reads like. I tried to fix it up, but... ugh. It does not reflect the growth I've experienced between the fall of '08 and now. But, it's done. It has been turned in. And I have to face the music at 5 p.m.
I don't think they can fail me. I think the worse that can happen is that I'll have to revise the portfolio. But I just want it to be over with! I tried telling Matthew that I could skip the defense and the last paper; that they couldn't take away my knowledge........ but he's making me do everything anyway! What a
Naw, I mean I know it will be fine, but I would like to just skip ahead to 5:30 and have it over with. So, if you think about it today, please pray and/or send good thoughts my way. I know it's not a case of human suffering, but... I'd really like to not throw up on the panel.
:)
*This is paraphrased from Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix by JK Rowling - page 21, according to the internets (I don't have the book on my person).
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